Another 50 list

Life is so good. Here are 50 of the things that I am grateful for at the moment!

1. The job that I have. Not only is it a fun and rewarding experience to be at work, but I don't have any financial worries because of it.

2. Summer. I feel so happy and carefree not having to worry about school.

3. My WONDERFUL boyfriend and all that he does for me. I love Holden.

4. My condo and the location of it.

5. The fact that I can always just walk a few feet from my doorstep and hop into the pool.

6. Holden went to my parent's house and had a little chat with my dad yesterday.

7. The Lakers were pwned in the game last night. Go Denver!

8. Gary and Jann Green invited me over for dinner on Sunday, which meant a lot to me even though I couldn't make it.

9. My car even if it is really dirty and you get hot riding around in it, it is such a great car and runs smoothly.

10. I had a bit of a rough weekend, but things have smoothed out, thanks to Holden.

11. Frazils, could there be a better icy beverage?

12. I scheduled a doctor's appointment today, which was scary.

13. Next Thursday I will be at my Aunt's house in San Diego! With the one I love!

14. Beth Green is such a sweet sister in law and she is going to be a mom, which will make me an aunt soon!

15. I am not scared of needles. Thus, I can make extra money giving my plasma away.

16. The roses that Holden and his dad always give me from their yard.

17. Brooke Williams just started working with me, and occasionally our schedules match up so we can car pool, which I love!

18. My littlest sister who broke both bones in her arm but talked to me the next day and said she was fine.

19. Holden's ability to play anything on the piano.

20. The price of gas is still (relatively) low. (Compared to last summer at 4.20$)

21. Watching Bride Wars with Holden, who hates chick flicks, and his mom who loves them.

22. I haven't messed up my life with drugs or alcohol. Working with teenage girls who have makes me realize how lucky I have been.

23. I can see the temple out my front window and it is so beautiful.

24. Holden's cemetery experience on Sunday.

25. My parents, I know they love me, and they respect my decisions.

26. Friends and family who come to visit me in St. George.

27. New friends that I have made in St. George.

28. My best friend is going to have a baby, so by the time I finally have kids, she will know everything about it and can help me through it.

29. Kelly Jewelers for having a ring that I love.

30. Facebook, for keeping me connected to everyone I have ever met, and letting me lurk everyone's lives.

31. Going to Brian Regan earlier this month. He never ever gets old.

32. My jacuzzi bath tub.

33. The upcoming family reunion! I love my extended family!

34. The gospel in my life. I know it is true, and have found someone to spend my life with who will live it with me.

35. I get to go to church this Sunday!

36. August 8th.

37. Tonight I get to relax with my sweetie.

38. Holden likes short hair. I am so happy I don't have to have long hair for the rest of my life!

39. I'm going to groom dogs on Thursday, it makes me not miss my doggies so much.

40. Both of my dogs are doing really well in their new homes.

41. My knowledge of life after death, and that families can be together forever.

42. I finally know how to play chess.

43. Holden's birthday is next Saturday.

44. Radioactive dishwasher movies. The first time I saw Holden.

45. The washer and dryer at my new house are huge, and I can wash way more clothes than I could at my old place.

46. The five days in a row that I had off of work last week.

47. I am not in financial debt.

48. Living so close to the mall and other places to shop.

49. The Green family home videos, and seeing Holden as a baby.

50. Future events which I am super excited for!

Sorry.

All in all, things are going great. I live in St. George now and I love it. I feel really detached from my old life, as though it doesn't exist anymore. It makes me a little bit sad but only if I think about it, which I try not to. Work and hanging out with Holden have been keeping me pretty busy. I also have really enjoyed having time to organize my house and clean up. I decided I love cleaning the house. I attribute that to my job, where we clean things constantly and so, if anything, that job is valuable because it has taught me how to like cleaning.

I don't know what to do with myself. How Holden puts up with me I will never understand. I always have to have things my way, and I am ridiculously indecisive and picky. For example yesterday I was starving, and I wanted pizza, but he wanted me to eat food at his parents house. And they had this chicken salad that had celery (gag) in it. I took one bite and spit it out and refused to eat it. Embarrassing him in front of his mom. Then he said we should get pizza. So we went out to my car to leave but then I couldn't decide if I still wanted pizza. And I was starting to not be hungry anymore. Then his mom came out and told us to eat a sandwich, and he said ok! And I didn't want one, and I was really tired. So I started to fall asleep at the kitchen table til he dragged me over to the couch. We sat there and after like 5 minutes he said we should go get pizza. Which I didn't even want anymore. We ended up just going over to Steve's house without eating. The point of this story? Wow, Emily is a jerk, how could anyone ever put up with that crap?

Some people think I am over-protective of Holden. I will neither affirm or deny this because I don't know if I am or not. Probably I am though because it sounds like something I would do. I already have a hundred other insecurities, let's add this one to the list. I do know that there isn't a good reason for me to be protective of him because he would never cheat on me.

You all know how wonderful Holden is at this point. He is such a sweetheart, and he stands by me through everything. I love him so much. What a good person. All I can hope is that he continues to be so non-judgemental of me. This blog seems really negative but it's not meant to be. I just feel sick today and feel really bad for the way I treated Holden last night.

Thankful

Things are working out so well for me! All I have left to do the next week and a half is pack up, pass classes, work and move everything.

I've noticed that a lot of people have lists of 50 things they are grateful for. That being said, here are 50 things that I am grateful for!

1. I have the dogs taken care of, both going to really good homes with people I know.

2. School is almost over, I only have 2 papers to write and two final tests and I'll be done.

3. Work is great. I'm so lucky to have my job.

4. Holden is wonderful.

5. I got a new phone that's not broken. For free.

6. Holden's dad fixed the rear view mirror in my car.

7. Kristen is going to come over on Saturday and help me pack my stuff.

8. My parents are going to come to Cedar next weekend and help move my stuff to St. George.

9. I have a pool and a hot tub at my new place :)

10. I paid my ticket from my registration and it's all taken care of now.

11. I took care of putting the electric bill at my condo in my name today.

12. Holden put little price stickers all over me today. I'm worth 29 cents. Haha.

13. I'm drinking orange juice. Mmm.

14. It's spring! And the weather is finally warming up!

15. The gospel is a huge part of my life, and I know my Heavenly parents love me.

16. Even though I work every other Sunday, I get to go to church at work sometimes.

17. My family is great.

18. Holden is taking me shopping on Thursday, heh.

19. The play offs are going on. Yay! And they are playing on nights that I don't have work! Go Jazz!

20. I got enough tickets to the graduation for my parents, my sister and Holden to all come.

21. I am pretty financially stable at the moment. Let's hope it lasts!

22. I won't have to drive nearly as far to and from work after I move.

23. My boss at Tyners Grooming will let me groom whenever I want to still but doesn't demand anything.

24. The girls at work make me laugh so much.

25. I have everything I need in the world and much more.

26. Holden and I are going on vacation the first weekend of June.

27. I am going to see Brian Regan on May 9th. For the 3rd time.

28. My car has been running so good since my dad fixed it.

29. My car gets 33-38 mpg, even on the freeway.

30. Gas prices haven't skyrocketed quite yet.

31. I have the most wonderful family. And so does Holden (even though I have yet to meet a couple of them.)

32. I made it through the 1st half of the second LotR movie without falling asleep.

33. Holden gave such a good talk on Sunday with so little preparation.

34. I love my viper seatbelt belt.

35. Holden and I have been able to set boundaries and keep them.

36. I am not scared of needles anymore.

37. I've been a pretty good kid all my life. I don't have any big regrets.

38. I am in love.

39. President Monson is speaking at the SUU graduation.

40. Tonight is my last night of food production class.

41. I will be living so much closer to the temple.

42. To be getting out of Cedar, even though I will really miss my good friends here.

43. Holden probably doesn't have cancer. Lol.

44. Holden's friends approve of me.

45. Eating junk food all day long doesn't make me sick.

46. I am still wearing a make out bracelet put on almost 4 years ago.

47. I have so much music on my iPod. Even if Holden hates it.

48. We watched "The Wrong Guy" on Saturday and it was so funny.

49. I got to see Holden for 15 minutes before he had work this morning.

50. As soon as I move down to St. George, Holden and I will have so much time to play, and it will be so happy.

The End of that.

Emily's Marriage Rules

I love making lists. I make them often. Here is one of them hahaha. This is a condensed version of my wedding list. Enjoy.

1. Do not get married early in the morning, preferably, we would have a breakfast at 10:00 am instead of a luncheon after. Then have a hair appointment and go to the temple.

2. Serve kid-friendly food, and only food that I like!

3. No high heels unless someone really wants to have them.

4. No country music at the reception.

5. If at all possible, have all the wedding pictures at the temple taken before the wedding.

6. Don't rent a car, it will get trashed. Probably should drive one car to the reception, then afterwards, if it is trashed, go switch to a different car.

7. Leave the reception by 8:00 pm.

8. No chocolate fountains. They are way too messy!

9. We're not going to smear cake in each others faces. I had a bad experience with cake smeared on my face before. We will use fingers to feed each other though!

10. We'll have bright, pretty wedding colors such as: purple, lime green, dark pink and orange.

11. No way am I getting married in the winter months. No way.

12. I don't want two rings that need to be sautered together. I just want one.

13. If there is a train on my dress, make sure that there is a way to pull it up so it doesn't drag.

14. Do the traditional wedding things (dancing, throwing the bouquet, and garter)

15. The groom may not wear a white tux. Pinstripes might be acceptable. No top hats. Shoes may be white and black depending. Tux shoes aren't required as they are uncomfortable.

16. Cake will be some cool flavor. Not plain vanilla. Way too boring!

17. Absolutely no real dishware (plates, cups, silverware). I don't want the mom's doing dishes all day!

18. Probably should have the bridesmaids wear their dresses and groomsmen wear tuxes to the temple to get group pictures right after.

19. Make all appointments ahead of time, and try to have all of them about a week before the wedding. These may include but are not limited to: hair cut, eyebrows, teeth cleaning/whitening,, manicure/pedicure, tanning, facial. Don't get acrylic or gel nails, no matter how cute they are.

20. I will have a honeymoon. For 6-7 days. No work, school, obligations. Nothing. No going on one later. That never happens and it's not the same.

Blog #2

So, I guess it's time to write another blog. This has been a long weekend, with a lot of work involved. Let's see, I worked about 66 hours over the last 3 days. So I didn't get much of an Easter break. And I am finally back home, for the first time since Friday morning. But it's good because I like work. I have a good time there. I even got to go to church on Easter Sunday at work. I feel bad because I missed talking to my mom on her birthday because I was at work for the whole day.

The great thing is that I got to see Holden every day over the weekend. Sometimes not for very long, but it was wonderful all the same. I am so excited to be moving to St. George next month. At the same time I am really stressed about it. I know it will work out though because it is the right thing for me to do. I've been really blessed that everything has worked out thus far, and I already have my own adorable condo!



Reasons that I am stressed: I need to find a new home for my dogs. This is going to be so so sad for me. I need to find them a new home because my crazy work schedule doesn't allow me to take care of them as much as they need me, and because the new condo doesn't allow pets. Reason number 2 is that I am going to have to pack everything and move it to St. George, which will be very hard, especially considering that I have no means by which to move everything. Number 3 is that once I move it, I have no place to put it. I have so much junk that I need to sort through, but I'm still worried that it won't fit in my condo. And finally I am stressed because of school ending at the end of the month, and I have so much stuff to do for that.

But for every stressor in my life, there are numerous blessings which I am so grateful for and I know that it will all work out. I just can't let them get to me. I love my life. And I am so very excited for the next few months coming up. Especially June, when I will get to go on a trip with the one I love. Yay. I still don't really like blogging after this. What's wrong?

I don't know how to blog.

You may be asking yourselves why I have a blog, well the answer is "I don't know." I really don't. Maybe sometime I can think of something interesting to write on here. For now, I guess I will write about my day, which wasn't too exciting...
I woke up at work (6 am) and finished up there. I got to see the 2-day old baby piggies before I left! They are so cute. They look like little dalmations because they have spots. Then I went to St. George to see my cute little Holden. We made breakfast together, which was fun. Then we had a great time driving my car around topless. The car was topless, we were not. He didn't know how to drive a manual transmission so we had training lesson one. It went well with minimal stalling on his part. He was too scared to drive it on the road though haha. Holden had to go to work and I was sad. On my way out of St. George I got pulled over by a dang motorcycle cop. He ticketed me for not having my current registration, which I was actually ON THE WAY TO GO GET. But he wouldn't listen to me and ticketed me anyways for it. Oh well, I'm not too worried about it. I came back to Cedar and got new tires and re-registered my car. That's about it for today. This is more like a journal entry than a blog. I don't understand the blogging concept. The end.